I definitely have mixed feelings about the doctor’s predictions. It’s been a few days since the appointment and now the reality of what he said has had a chance to set in. I am thankful that things have begun progressing and that he gave us the heads up, just in case I do in fact welcome our little bundle of joy before my next appointment on Tuesday. However, it has also changed my mindset. Prior to the appointment, I was completely content and had accepted the fact that the baby would probably arrive late. And with this mindset, I was okay whenever the baby decided to arrive, no anxieties at all. Now, I feel like it is a day-to-day “what if” situation. I am constantly wondering today is going to be the day, I mean the doctor said it could be any day so he is right, isn’t he… I guess it’s good that Ben and I have a game plan with each individual day, but I still miss the anxiety free-ness I guess.
All that said, I am trying to adapt a new more peaceful mindset. I know God has a greater plan and His hand is at work through this entire situation. Yes, the baby’s head is dropped, I am completely effaced, and I am at least 1 cm dilated, but that still doesn’t mean that I will be delivering this baby any sooner. It could be weeks (according to much of what I have read) before I even get dilated enough to need to go to the hospital. That is the same reality that I was fine with before so I am trying to be fine with it now. It’s still hard, given the excitement that surrounds the possibility that the doctor could be right. But I am trying to find peace and patience in the waiting period. We will get to see our little bundle of joy before we know it and all that matters is that it will be in God’s timing which is always the right timing. :-)
Oh this waiting is so hard! I had the "any day" starting at 36 weeks and didn't deliver until 41 wks 6 days. Oh, it was frustrating. And then my dad called every. day. asking how I was. Which was sweet, but eventually I started screening calls, haha! :) Maybe you could cook and freeze some meals during this time? Write some letters? Get somethings done that you won't have much time for before baby comes? Go Christmas gift shopping? (haha! I know.)
ReplyDeleteThanks for the suggestions. I am actually doing the meal freezing a bit. And now I am having to get resourceful with what to do at home. I went from working/going to school full-time to being at home for the past 2 months, so I have gotten way more done than I am used to. So now I have to be creative with what I do. :-)
ReplyDeleteI would say relax and enjoy this time...this is the last few days of being pregnant with your first child! I know you are anxious and excited to see your baby, but you won't get this time back! And the next time, you will have a little kid running around needing all your attention. :)
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